From All The Time In The World
(2012)
I’She married Mickey Holler when
she was fifteen. Married him to get out of her latest foster home where her so–called
dad used to fool with her, get her to hold him, things like that. Even before her
menses started. And her foster mom liked to slap her up the head for no reason. Or
for every reason. So she married Mickey. And he loved her–that was a plus. She had
never had that experience before. It made her look at herself in the mirror and do
things with her hair. He was twenty, Mickey. Real name Mervin. He was a sweet boy if
without very much upstairs, as she knew from their first date. He had a heel that
didn‚t touch the ground and weak eyes but he was not the kind to lay a hand on a woman.
And she could tell him what she wanted, like a movie, or a grilled–cheese sandwich and
a chocolate shake, and it became his purpose in life. He loved her, he really did, even
if he didnšt know much about it.
But anyway she was out of the house now,
and wearing a wedding ring to South Sumter High. Some of the boys said smutty things
but the girls looked upon her with a new respect.
Mickey‚s uncle Phil had come to the justice
of the peace with them to be best man. After the ceremony he grinned and said, Welcome
to our family, Jolene honey, and gave her a big hug that lasted a mite too long. Uncle
Phil was like a father to Mickey and employed him to drive one of the trucks in his
home oil delivery business. Mickey Holler was almost an orphan. His real father was in
the state penitentiary with no parole for the same reason his mother was in the burial
ground behind the First Baptist Church. Jolene asked Mickey, as she thought permissible
now that she was a relation, what his mother had done to deserve her fate. But he got
all flustered when he tried to talk about it. It happened when he was only twelve. She
was left to gather for herself that his father was a crazy drunk who had done bad things
even before this happened. But anyway that was why Jolene was living now with Mickey
under the same roof with his uncle Phil and aunt Kay.
Aunt Kay was real smart. She was an assistant
manager in the Southern Peoplešs bank across the square from the courthouse. So between
her and Uncle Phil‚s oil business, they had a nice ranch house with a garden out back and
a picnic table and two hammocks between the trees.
Jolene liked the room she and Mickey occupied,
though it looked into the driveway, and she had what she could do to keep it nice, with
Mickey dropping his greasy coveralls on the floor. But she understood the double obligations
of being a wife and an unpaying boarder besides. As she was home from school before anyone
finished their jobs for the day, she tried to make herself useful. She would have an hour
or so to do some of her homework and then she would go into the kitchen and put up something
for everyone‚s dinner.
Jolene had always like school–she felt at home
there. Her favorite subject was art. She had been drawing from the time she was in third grade,
when the class had done a mural of the Battle of Gettysburg and she drew more of it than anyone.
She couldn‚t do much art now at this time in her life as a married woman, not being just for
herself anymore. But she still noticed things. She was someone who had an eye for what wants to
be drawn. Mickey had a white hairless chest with a collarbone that stood out across from shoulder
to shoulder like he was someone‚s beast of burden. And a long neck and a backbone that she could
use to do sums. He surely did love her–he cried sometimes he loved her so much–but that was all.
She had a sixteenth birthday and he bought her a negligee he picked out himself at Berman‚s
department store. It was three sizes too big. Jolene could take it back for exchange, of course,
but she had the unsettling thought that as Mickey‚s wife all that would happen in her life to
come was she would grow into something that size. He liked to watch her doing her homework, which
made her realize he had no ambition, Mickey Holler. He would never run a business and play golf
on the weekend like Uncle Phil. He was a day–to–day person. He did not ever talk about buying his
own home, or moving toward anything that would make things different for them than they were now.
She could think this of him even though she liked to kiss his pale chest and run her fingers over
the humps of his backbone.
—All The Time In The World